Wednesday, April 28, 2010

running from my problems

There is something about a run that can solve all problems; more so than cookie dough or a phone call from a friend. I'm not completely convinced that the scientific explanation of endorphins is the sole reason for feeling emotionally better after a run, I think its the act of doing something, only for yourself, that is the reason I feel so good after a run.

Running is a lot of alone time, with yourself. There isn't much between you and the road, with the exception of an iPod and the weather, but in this case, the weather and time of day drove me to the treadmill, usually my most un-favorite piece of gym equipment. Running is personal, its intimate, it's a mind game, but it's an experience for only the runner to experience fully.

Yesterday I did something for myself as well, I didn't go for a run, but I got my nose pierced. I haven't done anything to this extreme for myself, ever, or at least in recent memory. Not everyone agrees with my decision, especially my parents, but for once, besides running, I have done something for myself.

Today's run, despite the treadmill, was extremely rewarding. I know I can not run from my problems, that's for sure; after my run, there was still a hole in my nose, and two angry parents back in Maine. The run wasn't able to fix everything, or come even close, but in a way, I was able to run away some of the guilt that has been building up since yesterday's actions, make myself more at ease with the situation. And maybe that's all we, and my parents, really need, is time to adjust, time to accept, and time to run away the feelings inside.

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