tears

It's clear from my lack of posts, that I haven't been running, because I generally like to write about all of them. It's pointless for me to reiterate day after day and say, "welp, I didn't go running today! There's always tomorrow!" I bet I would lose one of my already too few followers if that's all I talked about. It's certainly not very motivating, or interesting to read. That being said...

I had these thoughts today on my way over to Fike that I would step onto my treadmill, and immediately burst into tears. This isn't an uncommon occurrence for me, this whole crying while running thing. It happens more often than is probably healthy, but I actually feel that it's some what productive, especially when I just don't have time to curl up in a ball and cry, which is weirdly enough very similar to the feelings that I have been having. It's unfortunate that life moves on, with or without you, and I generally like to go along with it, I'm a needy girl and I hate being left behind, thus I don't curl up and cry too often.

Well what do you know, all it took was a few well chosen songs from my newly created "damage control" playlist to get the tears rolling. I would say by the time I hit mile one I was what you could consider crying, and full out bawling by mile two. It's Sunday night at Fike, honestly, I don't think any of the other three people surrounding me were too interested in my spontaneous crying, especially while Pirates of the Caribbean was playing on the TV in front of me. With the sweat that was also accumulating on my face, I'm sure it was difficult to differentiate between sweat and tears, but it's not like I was looking for sympathy. Per usual, my run was followed by a wonderful, but intensive two hour dance practice, that left me more sore and sweaty than I ever imagined possible, but all the hard work will pay off in a few weeks.

I have to say, I do feel better. Today's run was possibly more satisfying than laying on the floor and crying, if that's even possible. Following an eventful (and regretful?) weekend, this week brings too many exams, a speech on the Boston Marathon and hopefully, more runs.